Shit.. I think i've screwed up my chances to get into Biotecnologies this year.. Test is in a couple of days and I still have to study the biology book and a couple of chapters out of the chemistry one.. And the tuesday tests focus on knowledge of these subject plus a little math and physics.. The reason i feel disappointed the most with myself is that I thought that this could be a really good choice. After a couple of years I could've specialize in Bioinformatics that seems very appealing under many point of views.

On the other hand, after a lot of thinking my alternative has turned out to be Astronomy, and I'm already registered for that, with the aim of moving into Physics in the future or specializing in Astrophysics. Anyway I won't blame myself too much for what has happened.. those have been though days, and since I got back from the States I've been on and off mood shifts and lonely at times.. yeah.. I miss my love.. but I'm looking forward for things..

Still the picture isn't much clear... None of the above still has turned out to be a verifiable good choice.. I do want to enhance my skills in the IT field, and I wonder if I'm making a mistake not to look for a degree in that direction.. I always tell to myself that I want to do something different, that I don't want to spend 4 or 5 years studying computer science and programming.. while I can do that by my own.. I would like to start an activity, a company, one day, focused on internet services and internet developing, focusing on programming languages like Java, Flash, XML, PHP, or new ones soon to come in the field.. focusing on web related programming, web animation, and computer graphic, but also innovative internet services, technologies not yet released..

Will I regret the fact of not having choosed an IT related degree ? Will I really need that ? I really don't know how to answer..

And among all the little things comes the unexpectable ones, the one that could change your life as fast as you expire a breath.. Those are usually the best moments of your life, or the worst ones.. And no one can say when they'll be due.. It could be a week from now, six months, fifteen years.. So we still plan our lives, unaware of the unexpected.. And I think that's the beautiful thing about life.

But I know I have at least one sure thing in life. The only one I need. And that is You